We met in Baltimore in the summer of 1982. We were juniors in college. He was an out-of-town student intern. Our romance lasted for less than a year, but we remained friends and have kept in touch since.
Now he is in the desert of Saudi Arabia. In charge of a tank company, he will be one of the first to engage in land battle if the war comes to that.
I'm frightened for him. He called me just before he was to be shipped out in October. We talked for nearly two hours, and although he defended the decision to send troops to the Middle East to drive Saddam Hussein out of Kuwait, I thought he sounded scared, too.
He says that he doesn't want to kill anyone but believes he's rightfully serving his country.
But his letters are sad, and he writes about the hard conditions the troops must endure and the poor condition of some of his equipment. We've decided to share excerpts from his letters because not much candid news about the men and women fighting in this war is getting out. We've decided not to disclose his name for fear he may be reprimanded by the military for his remarks. OCT. 13, 1990: Sand vipers and scorpions
The first area we stayed at had very poor sanitary conditions. As we got closer to the desert, sand vipers, scorpions and sand flies increased as problems. . . . Morale is low, and we are hoping to attack soon just to escape the conditions in our assembly area. Men are frightened, but they try not to show it. One got into a fight with a Saudi soldier, who tried to kill him. . . . OCT. 26, 1990: Dangerously close to the front
I was ill-prepared for the desert of Saudi Arabia. Our position . . . is classified, but I will say it is dangerously close (to the front).
Our problems remain hidden. There is no press this far out, only Baghdad Betty on the radio reminding us that we are going to die. Pre-combat stress is high, and I feel unable to relieve most of the worries of my soldiers. The Army has done little to make our stay any easier. We don't even have maps to carry out any counterattacks.
Snakes, scorpions and spiders remain a problem and have bitten many soldiers. I've seen many scorpions in Texas and California but nothing as big and nasty as these Middle East bastards. Everything is aggressive, even the flies that seem to cling to any open wound, your mouth. . . .
I am here waiting to respond to any order, although I hope there is a quick solution. The American soldier will never fully be appreciated for what he endures.
I must get some sleep. Hope to be back in six months. NOV. 4, 1990: Baker's dog-and-pony show
The secretary of state, James Baker, was here, and I had to travel three hours across desert wasteland (no roads) to attend a military reception. . . . This dog-and-pony show lasted far too long for the desert midday. Physical discomfort did not permit any of us to listen to the content of his speech very carefully, but I believe he told us he was grateful for the sacrifice.
The secretary's visit did little to boost morale. In fact, the manner in which it was handled hurt the trust our men have in (his) leadership. . . . DEC. 3, 1990: Letters from home
News of not receiving your first letter left me somewhat upset at our system, but it is slowly improving. . . . All correspondence is welcomed and needed by myself and my soldiers. Mail is so important; really, any contact with home is.
Although a peaceful resolution would be welcomed by all, I don't believe it will happen. In an all-out movement . . . most likely 32 of the 57 men in my company will die. That is about 56% of us!
No matter how stressful the environment, we manage to enjoy life. . . .
We have a pet scorpion . . . to help us get "in tune" with our surroundings. Both of us are caged in a sense and both of us are deadly. DEC. 5, 1990: Stolen goods and poor equipment
Our chaplains have no official religious role while in this country, so as not to offend our host nation.
The cost of my personal equipment needed for a field environment could easily run into the thousands of dollars.
Could this money be better spent? Yes, if man didn't fight. No, if you believe the men and women who do protect this country deserve the best protection and equipment possible.
The only problem with the latter answer is--the stuff just does not work as well as it should, and the soldiers know it.
But morale is still fairly high because of the recent telephone system established in the desert. For 15 minutes, guys can call home. . . .
Although things have improved, the support units still retain the real goodies such as generators, sodas, TVs, VCRs and athletic equipment for themselves. The Saudis have almost stopped looking through our mail. Guys get Playboy and everything else. However, Americans smash our packages and steal many of the high-dollar items.