Some boys who read Marjorie's zine--it is called "Some Misplaced Joan of Arc" and costs $1 plus two stamps--mistake her as a national banner for teen feminism. Likely they are thinking of articles such as "The World's Guide to Being a Girl," which reads: "Be sexy, but don't be a slut. Stand up for yourself, but don't be a bitch. Be thin, but don't have an eating disorder. Play sports, but don't be aggressive or competitive. Be smart, but not a nerd. Believe in yourself, but don't be conceited. Speak up, but don't be too loud or have a big mouth. Be original, but not weird. These are some of the stupid standards people expect from girls and women."
"Guys are scared of her because she's tough and intelligent and because of the way she holds herself," Nadia will say when she thinks of that passage. But Marjorie is also as mercurial and confused and unnerved by the wrong boys and self-conscious and emotionally tentative as any 15-year-old-girl growing up in America.
Like other adolescent girls suddenly aware of the cultural territory mapped out for them at the end of the 1990s, Marjorie often feels that she has been split in two. She is supposed to be confident and secure but there are all these forces aligned against her to make her feel vulnerable and insecure. This is also Buffy's problem. "Buffy never really wanted to be a slayer," Marjorie was saying the other day. "Sometimes she just wants to be a normal teenager. She was more popular before she became a slayer. So now she really only has a small group of friends who all accept her for what she is. But even though she would rather not be a slayer sometimes, its still her duty and her responsibility to herself."