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A Jump Survivor's Bridge to Activism

John Kevin Hines wants a suicide barrier erected on the Golden Gate to keep others from leaping.

May 23, 2005|John M. Glionna | Times Staff Writer

SAN FRANCISCO — The very moment John Kevin Hines jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge, he knew he'd made a mistake.

His eyes wet with tears, he had finally consented to the voices that commanded him to take his own life. But at 10:40 a.m. on that overcast September day, just as he catapulted over a 4-foot-high railing and began his frantic free fall, the college freshman asked himself: "What did I just do? I don't want to die."

Plummeting head-first toward the churning waters 220 feet below, he tried to scream, but the force of the descent sucked the air from his lungs. He felt an odd euphoria as winds buffeted his body. But to survive, he knew he had to right himself before hitting the water.

At last, the former high school wrestler and football nose tackle tipped his head back, plunging below the surface feet first. Pain raced through his legs as the impact fractured an ankle and shattered two vertebrae in his lower back.

Hines opened his eyes to a murky netherworld, his broken body racked by fierce currents in the 50-degree water. Still, he could see diffuse light above and headed for the surface 40 feet away.

"I remember it like it was yesterday: At the top, I took this huge gasp of air," he said. "It's like I was reborn that day."

Hines was just 19.

Its majestic orange arch spanning San Francisco Bay, the Golden Gate Bridge holds a dubious distinction as one of the world's most popular suicide spots. Since 1937, bridge officials say, more than 1,300 people have made the leap, not counting those who went unnoticed or whose bodies were quickly swept out to sea.

Only 16 have survived.

Now 23, Hines has a titanium cage in his back. He has twice returned to hospitals to treat a bipolar disorder that causes upsetting mood swings. Yet today he has a mission, unlike the one he had Sept. 25, 2000.

His face freckled, his body weightlifter-sturdy, he takes time from his acting studies to help prevent others from opting for what he calls "a permanent solution to a temporary problem."

Hines is part of a task force urging officials to erect a suicide barrier on the landmark span. He has spoken to numerous groups about how a barricade would prevent bridge suicides, which now average about one every two weeks.

Officials have long resisted installing a barrier, citing the cost, a fear of compromising the bridge's profile and doubts over whether determined jumpers wouldn't just go elsewhere.

Hines knows the terrible allure the bridge holds for the severely depressed.

"Most people see the bridge's spectacular beauty; the mentally ill see an opportunity for a romantic way out," he said. "What they choose to ignore is that hitting the water at that speed is a gruesome way to die."

Hines spent a month in the hospital recovering from his injuries. For a year, he avoided the towering Art Deco span. On the first anniversary of his jump, his father took him back to the site as a way to exorcise his pain.

Facing San Francisco's gleaming skyscrapers, Hines dropped a purple tulip to the water below. Now he returns every year on the date.

"I was supposed to die," he said. "I wanted to die. Every day, that jump prompts me to ask, 'Who am I? Why am I?' "

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A Mounting Suicide Toll

With great fanfare, the Golden Gate Bridge opened May 28, 1937. Within weeks, World War I veteran Harold Wobber became the first suicide statistic with the supposed last words: "This is as far as I go."

Year by year, the toll mounted. A San Francisco Examiner story after the 500th bridge suicide in 1973 noted that "the jumpers included janitors, attorneys, dishwashers, young mothers, college students, scientists, peddlers, laborers, socialists, businessmen, models, writers, hospital patients, professors, accountants, bankers and swingers."

The oldest person to go over the rail was an 87-year-old man, the youngest a 5-year-old girl, thrown over by her suicidal father before his own plunge. One couple held hands and jumped together following a last kiss, news accounts say.

Victims are rich and poor, famous and obscure. They include Roy Raymond, founder of Victoria's Secret and the eldest son of former White House Press Secretary Pierre Salinger. In 1995, Duane Garrett, a fundraiser and friend of Al Gore, was found floating under the bridge.

The span took on a circus atmosphere as the media started countdowns to the 1,000th recorded jumper. A disc jockey promised a case of Snapple to the family of the victim, and local lumberyard workers formed the "Golden Gate Leapers Assn.," wagering on the day of the next jump, according to bridge historians.

Finally, authorities halted the official count at 997 as mental health experts began educating the public on the trauma suffered by jumpers.

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