Her husband behind bars, Spector's wife breaks silence

Rachelle Spector and the producer chose to marry in that foyer 3 1/2 years after Clarkson's death.

"Why wouldn't I?" she said, adding, "I sit in that chair all the time."

Discussing how empty the house seems without her husband, her voice wavers. "It's like I'm floating in the middle of nowhere. It's like I'm just hanging," she said.

But Spector sounds determined as she discusses the future. In the course of an hour, she referred to two different things as her "main focus."

The first is her husband's appeal. The second is her music career. She said her husband recorded her performing songs that he originally wrote for Celine Dion, Madonna and Trisha Yearwood.

"He could've sold [the music] to make money, but that's how much he believed in me," she said. She hopes to release the tracks but is waiting for his OK.

There is talk of rereleasing some of her husband's music, including recordings of his conversations with artists in the studio. His business affairs keep her occupied seven days a week, she said.

"I've always had a mind of an entrepreneur, so this comes easy. Plus I'm a Gemini and a very big multi-tasker," she said.

Her mother said she worried about the length of the sentence and the effect on her daughter. "I said, 'This is a long time, Rachelle, to commit yourself to.' And she said, "Mommy, I can't think about way in advance. What I am going to concern myself with is right now,' " Murdock said.

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