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It was hard to let go of Mr. Martinez

IN PRACTICE

January 25, 2010|By Mark Morocco

Handing off becomes a personal loss, even when it's to the patient's family or to a hospice professional, even when there is plenty of time, the right planning and everyone is in agreement on what to do next. So we delay, or give up, or wait for the disease to make the decision and for death to have the final word. But it is still a shock how hard it is for both doctors and patients to make the decision to let go. Sometimes we never do.

And so my month with Mr. Martinez went on until one morning when I found his room empty, the bed stripped bare and the blinds opened to a blazing blue East L.A. sky.

The nurse read my face, and lied: "Your friend said goodbye. It was a good death." Her clipped Filipino accent gave the news a hard finality, washing away soft Yiddish whispers in the February sun.

His death left my days in the hospital simpler, but poorer -- just like his boyhood, years ago.

Morocco is an associate professor and associate residency director of emergency medicine at UCLA Medical Center and was the medical supervisor for "ER."

health@latimes.com

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