Every Wednesday afternoon, my colleague Douglas Burton-Christie and I try to conjure the desert in a classroom at Loyola Marymount University. We are both bona fide desert rats, but we come to the "land of little rain," as Mary Austin once called it, from very different places as we teach an interdisciplinary seminar called Into the Desert.
I'm in the English department and have long written of the deserts along the U.S.-Mexico border and the drama of the migrants who try to cross. Doug is a theologian who has devoted much of his academic career to studying early Christian monasticism — the monks who wandered into the Egyptian desert seeking purity of spirit. A colleague who knew of our contrasting desert obsessions introduced us, and the idea for the class grew out of a friendly argument that began over a cup of coffee.
When I first heard Doug talk about his desert, it sounded a bit New Agey to me, a threat to my desert's historical materialism and political urgency. We ribbed each other. To him I was Rubén, the hotheaded post-colonialist; to me he was Doug, the crunchy latter-day monk.
I flirted with mysticism just out of high school, but I quickly abandoned it. The revolution in El Salvador, my mother's native country and where I had a large extended family, was televised. Who had time for meditation when there were death squads, guerrillas and refugees to worry about?
Two decades later, over coffee with Doug, I was as political as ever but at the same time also thirsty to explore those matters of the spirit I'd been ignoring. I'd roamed the desert for a long time, but I'd turned away from one of its most enduring traditions.
There are many deserts, I began to realize, in the desert.
The more Doug and I talked, the more we realized that our deserts did not necessarily contradict each other. His scholarship points out that the early desert monks were themselves political as well as spiritual pilgrims. Many of them were small-time farmers stressed by the heavy hand of Roman taxation and the competition for finite resources in the Nile River Valley. They arose during a moment of social crisis, a time not unlike our own. The early monastics practiced anachoresis, a withdrawal from village life to take up solitary contemplation of the divine. They were looking for a better world.
Several of these ideas resonated with "my" desert; today's migrants might not wander into it intending to fast and pray and do battle with demons, but that is pretty much what they wind up doing as they trek across the wilderness, fleeing from bandits and the Border Patrol.
Our classroom on the third floor of St. Roberts Hall is proving big enough to contain these deserts within the desert. One week the devil is raising dust in St. Anthony's mind, filling the beautiful emptiness with temptation. The next, we read from Ana Castillo's quirky and luminous novel "The Guardians," about a middle-aged Latina struggling to keep her faith and family intact in the murderous borderlands between El Paso and Ciudad Juarez, Mexico. And then we veer to 14th century German theologian Meister Eckhart, imagining a profound spiritual union in the desert where trinities and dualities fall away into "one with One, one from One, one in One, and in One, one everlastingly." And then we arrive in the mid-20th century to accompany Aldous Huxley on a spirit quest just across the San Gabriel Mountains in the Mojave, invoking Eckhart in his writings even as he agonized over the darkness on the edge of the land: mushroom clouds rising over the Nevada test site.
I had once dismissed the mystical monks as radical individualists, and in some ways they were. But in the spiritual desert of antiquity, as well as in today's borderlands, we can find what is most human in us: compassion. That's the thing about the desert; for all its "emptiness," it teems with life (the wildflowers came early this year in the Mojave, with the December rains and January sun), fragile as it is. It would be impossible for the sojourner to make it through the desert without the knowledge — and hospitality — of those who came before.
Like Doug and me, our students struggle to reconcile these disparate deserts: the paradox of a place of perfect stillness and sudden violence, the migrant stumbling across the sand within view of desert-chic resorts.
People in Southern California use the desert in ways that are often at cross-purposes — for quietude and for motocross, for rock climbing and for raves. But within all these, there is the understanding that the desert is a place to transcend our ordinary lives. And in that sense, we are following a very ancient path.
Author and performer Rubén Martínez is a professor of literature and writing at Loyola Marymount University. He is the author of the forthcoming "Desert America."