American writer Richard Russo in Paris on Sept. 23, 2010. (Ulf Andersen / Getty Images )
In his first memoir, "Elsewhere," Pulitzer Prize-winning novelist Richard Russo examines his intense relationship with his late mother, a woman whose strange behavior was explained by the family as a simple case of "nerves." Russo talked about his new book from his home in Camden, Maine.
Why your first memoir now?
In a sense I would have preferred that it be never. I'm a perfectly happy novelist. I love to invent things. But in the months after my mother's death, which was about five years ago, she was very much on my mind and also visiting my dreams as well, which made it feel to me like maybe there was unfinished business there.
I think that this book is in a way connected to my novels, especially the last couple, because "Empire Falls" and "Bridge of Sighs" are both about people who are pushing 60 pretty hard and wondering, how in the world did I come to be here? [In "Empire Falls,] Miles Roby has this profound sense of his mother's dream for him, and he imagines this other life where he is a learned man if only he had finished college the way she wanted him to and become some sort of teacher or professor, that he would have fulfilled her dream. In "Bridge of Sighs," Lucy Lynch, who never leaves his hometown, wonders, how is it that life turned out this way? What was it in my genetic makeup, what were the choices that I made?
And in the months after my mother's death, I found myself puzzling over these questions of destiny, because we shared so many similarities, both of nature and nurture. We're both obsessive genetically, I think.
Why do you think her death gave you no closure, though, as you write in the book. Is it because you felt that you could never do enough for her?
I still had the feeling for many months after her death that I had failed her in some way. I had the sense of all sorts of things that I'd forgotten to do. For all those years there was every day a list of things that needed to be done. And when she was gone, the items on the list disappeared, but not my sense of the list.
Did you feel it was your responsibility to make your mother happy, which she never really was?
Yes, I felt the weight of that. I felt that if she wasn't both happy and healthy — and healthy every bit as happy, because at a very early age, I felt that her health was in some way my responsibility... We're not talking about front-of-the-brain stuff, we're talking about back of the brain. I mean I'm not stupid. I know that nobody can make somebody else happy or healthy, but that's in the front of the brain. That's what you know intellectually, which has really very little to do with that other part of the brain that you don't have control of.
I wondered whether there wasn't something about the intensity of this relationship that was peculiar to the fact that it was between a mother and son, especially since the mother is a single parent and the son a single child.
When you're an only child and you have no one to compare notes with, everything seems normal. And for me, part of the experience of writing this book was not to tell people what I knew, but rather to tell them what I didn't know, what it was like growing up as a child with someone you sensed was in some way possessed.
After her death, you figured out that she had obsessive-compulsive disorder. Did you never think that her strange behavior rose to the level of mental illness before that? Didn't other people around you suggest that?
No. In the family, there was always the sense that the women in the family were "nervous." That was the word that was used. I began to get the surest sense of it after Barbara and I married. And I began to get a sense from Barbara's parents and other people my mother met after we were adults that other people knew something was wrong.
In addition to your mother defining normal for you, was there something in you that resisted drawing that conclusion?
Absolutely. Because to draw that conclusion would be a betrayal. As her world grew more difficult and narrow and she became more afraid of things outside of her very restricted world, we began to suggest to her that it might be good for her to talk to somebody. But even in those most benign terms, she would just go off the deep end. That's typical of OCD sufferers, because unlike other people with mental illness, they know perfectly well that there's something wrong and they know pretty much what it is. But they just can't face it.
For me, one of the other tricks of writing the book was to not let that leak into the book early because this is not a medical book, and because I want this to be something that people experience as opposed to something they become educated about.
I was surprised to see you admit in writing that if your wife hadn't been willing to help take care of your mother and you had to choose between them, you would have chosen your mother. How did your wife respond to that?